November

I paid all the bills n got a few things for the house. I took Nadia to c my mom the other day too. Things have been a lil busy, 2 babyshowers last weekend. A long week too. On Monday the 2nd my daughter's Godfather became a first time dad, his whole family is totally excited. They have a beautiful lil boy. I wanna c him,but I still have a mild cold, sniffles, sneezes n a cough. I wanna wait till I'm all better. Besides I heard from my daughter that her dad was coming into town Saturday to visit. Believe me, I rather not c him for any reason.
Sometimes I think I got the shit end of stuff, in the love department. Everyone I have had a relationship with or dated seems to b a asshole/cheater, mess. I guess I have bad taste in men. I don't like badboys, I don't want someone else's bf either. Men seem to think that big-girls r desperate sluts or something. I want my own guy, one that wants to b with me only, not every woman on the planet, I would like to have quality time with him, n c the smile on his face when he c's me or hear his happiness when we talk on the phone. I would like someone I can trust, feel some security with n just b happy n chill. I've never been lucky enough to have real love, I hope God grants me that b4 I leave this earth. Don't get me wrong, I luv my family n friends. But I would really like a mate/partner to spend my life with too. I was silly enough to think the last guy/ I wasted too much time on might b the one, my mistake. I was disappointed n hurt, now I'm just plain over it.
I have alot to do, Nana keeps me busy n she brightens my day always. :)
I should do more stuff in the house n work on my crafts when she isn't with me. Sleep waits for me. Nite Nite.